God Healed Me

A few weeks ago, I wrote a post Come to Me, about finding out I had heart issues, and a possible blockage. This past Thursday I had a heart catheterization procedure to see if what the tests showed was true.

Between finding out the news in November and the procedure this past Thursday, I prayed two specific requests, and asked others to pray them with me:

• God, please heal my heart so that I don't need a stent.
• God, please have the doctor do the procedure radially (through the arm) instead of through my groin, for faster healing.

I didn't always have the faith to believe what I was praying, I prayed anyway and asked God for His healing. I prayed right up until I was too out of it to pray any more.


My primary care doctor thought I would need a stent for sure. The cardiologist told us the procedure would take 2 hours, which implied he thought so too.
 
But God...
 
Procedure started at 7AM, and finished at 7:35. The doctor said, "No blockages, you're good to go." And they went in through my arm.
 
I was stunned. My first thought, "Wow, God answered my prayer and healed me." I cried. I rejoiced. I broke inside at the news. Humbled. Thankful.
 
I did nothing to deserve my healing. I simply asked, and had others ask in agreement. People prayed. God answered, and this time He said, "Yes!"

Since then I've been pondering, and crying more. Crying because I am so blessed. Crying because I have been praying for years for healing for others that has not happened. Crying because God loves me so much. Crying because I know He loves others and yet their prayers have been unanswered.
 
Why me? Why not others?
 
 I know there are books written about the subject of why God heals or doesn't heal. I've read some of them. I know there is theology to support God healing, and God not healing. I know prayer is a factor, and yet it's not a fool-proof formula. I've blogged about that too (read here).
 
For me, I'm keeping it simple these days. I don't know, and I don't understand. I am thankful God healed me, I will tell everyone about it, and I'll pray He heals them.
 
I will choose to lay down my formulas, and reasoning, and self-effort, and I'll choose to trust God with what I don't understand. I'll continue to witness to His goodness, mercy, and healing power. I'll continue to thank Him for my healing, through tears, and with great joy. I'll continue to pray, in faith, for whatever God puts in my heart to pray...leaving all the results to Him.
 
 

I know I won't always get it right, and sometimes my faith will be small. So I'll continue to sit in my Daddy's lap and ask questions...even though I know there aren't always answers.
 
I think He's OK with that!





 

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.

(Proverbs 3:5-6, NIV)